Nodus tollens movie#

i miss my high school bestfriend and kiko, and my high school dance group. i miss the strangers i see everyday at university. all my life iвЂ™ve been this responsible person, and i always worry i might disappoint people or myself, maybe i canвЂ™t live the life i want right now because i am depending on my parents and i canвЂ™t disappoint them, but all i can do is enjoy. i wanna live in the moment and not worry about the consequences. i want to keep living in the moment and not worry about anything anymore. i wanna feel alive again.ДЄs of the moment, iвЂ™m holding, with all of my strength, on a string, just to feel alive. maybe this is just temporary because i took a gap year which made my life stagnant. i want to go back in time and relish everything again, just to feel. sometimes i think i am not capable of anything so i donвЂ™t try anymore, but at the same time, i know i can do anything i set my mind to. I feel like my memory is fading, i canвЂ™t quite grasp everything right now, sometimes i feel like iвЂ™m losing my sense of self. going home late at my dorm and waiting for it to open because i studied outside, everything feels like a dream, i wished i had it on video, but thankfully i have some photos.

Nodus tollens movie#

study dates with my boyfriend, movie nights, studying late at night in the condo alone, eating oatmeals for breakfast, going out at night to party when there are no friday classes to attend to, doing school projects with my blockmates, spending time with my college friends, going to the library to study, riding on the back of my boyfriend holding my slippers because thereвЂ™s a flood due to heavy rains near our university. i feel like all those events that happened before i graduated were just a dream. Recently, or maybe a year now, i havenвЂ™t felt quite like myself. i hope i can work well and not be distracted. IвЂ™m literally sitting on my bed, i hope when school starts i wonвЂ™t feel lazy because i canвЂ™t afford it.

these past few months, i tried so hard to find my place, my personal space, to study in when classes start, i hope this is it. I arranged my bed and put a table beside so i can work on my laptop and have my own personal space. ItвЂ™s a sunday afternoon, acoustic guitar music playing on my phone, the retribution of mara dyer book on my left leg, i painted my nails, just got out a shower, and the rain is pouring hard with thunderstorms. can time ever slow down? i just want to be an innocent girl again, playing with my siblings and my cousins and my friends and some strangers i would never meet again. Listening to sad songs so that maybe my tears will fall. My throat hurts, but tears are not coming, i want them to. i canвЂ™t imagine one of my sisters leaving our home, what was once a chaotic home, turned to a quiet one when we got to college and 2 of us left, before aden came, there was an unsettling calm, and then a happy chaos when he came. i know marriage is something to be happy for but somehow it kind of hit me like a lightning i was expecting but didnвЂ™t think would cause me pain. Long story short, i found out my cousin is getting married!! itвЂ™s all getting too close to home. The clock had just struck 12, itвЂ™s midnight.Д¬razy how time flies eh? one moment youвЂ™re just innocent little kids trying to ask permission if you can visit another neighborвЂ™s house, then another youвЂ™re taking entrance exams for college, then youвЂ™re graduating from college, is now an adult, and is now engaged to some guy you thought was a stranger.